Category: Edge
Word Count: 490

The Price He Paid
by Jen


The white hot pain surrounds her, blotting out all else. It's the only
thing that awakens her soul now. She feels dead unless the whip is at
her back or the cane is welting her mercilessly. She knows that he
doesn't like to do these things, to take her so far, but he does it
because she needs it. No matter that her body might be permanently
marked. The envelope is beyond being pushed, it's ripped wide open, and
there is nothing she can't handle these days.

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He hates what he does to her, but he can't stand the look in her eyes
when she begs him to help her, to take her beyond the edge. She's her
old self for a while afterwards, so he accepts what he has to do as a
way to bring her back. He hopes that one day he can drive her demons
out so he can have her back for good, whole again, but it's been months
already and he doesn't see an end to it. He has tried forcing her to
agree to a safeword, but her obstinacy on the subject is of monumental
proportions. He also knows she'd find someone else to do this to her if
he doesn't, and he wouldn't trust anyone else to have her best
interests at heart. He'd never "hurt" her.

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The endorphins are at such a high level that she doesn't realize that
it's gone too far. She doesn't notice her heart speeding before it
stops or her mind becoming jumbled. Her last lucid thought is that
she's finally "there". She feels such immense peace that she thinks she
can allow him to back down now. She tries to safeword, but there's no
sound, and she panics, but only for the briefest moment. Her heart
stops and her mind fades to black. The peace she once longed for is
eternal now.

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He sits in the dark apartment, not moving, not really seeing. Even
after a year the image of her still body prone on the bed is burned
into the insides of his eyelids and into his brain. His guilt and
emotional pain are as eternal as her peace. He knows in his heart that
he killed her, though the exhaustive months- long investigation
exonerated him. He no longer tries to kill himself, but he no longer
tries to live either. He won't allow himself the comfort of human
companionship. He refuses to become involved with a woman again,
because he's afraid he'd kill again. He had just wanted to help her,
but now he sees how wrong he was. He should've tried to get her help.
She told him her way would work, and he had believed her. Now she was
gone forever and he was left here to be haunted by his mistakes for the
rest of his life. He hoped and prayed that it wouldn't be a long life.

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Okay, now the reason for the story being in the Edge category. It goes
way beyond the fact that she dies, which is reason enough. He's got to
live with what he did forever. That's so unfair to me, to do that to
somebody, to drag them into your hell. He's so destroyed, and there's
absolutely no hope for anything else.

This is the first spanking story I've written in a year, and I have no
idea where it came from, but it was there in my head, so I wrote it.


Jen